Shanker

Name : Shanker
B'day : Feb 1
Classmate in Mohandas college
Gang in class : Anand, Amal, Mathayi, Andru, Arun, Shanker, Rakhi and me

Shanku is my neighbour and also a good friend ... He is a very quiet guy. He is one of the rare species whom I have never seen show much of an emotion at all ... he is very good at not showing wat goes through his mind outside and as a result its very difficult to gauge his moods. He is quite friendly though he is quiet. Though he is a friend of mine when we sit and talk in a group he mostly only nods his head to whatever is spoken or usually maximum gives single word comments ... and its just the way he is ... a reserved person. He looks skinny but is quite strong, and is said to have too much strength to handle by the guys when he goes outta line when they party. But well that apart he is quite cool to hang out with.

Mathayi

Name : Shinu
classmate in college
Gang : Amal, Anand, Andru, Mathayi, Arun, Shanku, Rakhi, me

He is a very down to earth person and another of my close friends ... he would do anything for friends and cares a lot about the people whom he loves. He is also a guy with his heart in the right place and who has to find what he wants to do in life other than his favourite past time of partying [;)]. He loves his tharavaadu a lot!!! He tries keeping many secrets and often ends up being caught out by friends and then is at the recieving end of a lot of making fun ... But if he gets his life straightened out he is really a totally cool guy who would be a good family man also. And i sure expect him to have a very happy and successful life up ahead.

Amal

Name: Amal also called Alpu
Classmate in college
Gang in class : Anand, Amal, Mathayi, Andru, Arun, Shanker, Rakhi and me

This is a very good friend of mine and classmate of mine in Mohandas college of Engineering. We had a lot of fun together and though he pulls my leg a lot and used to get beaten up by me a lot, and maybe becoz of it he has a special place in my heart. I guess he is like a brother to me, and a friend. He is a simple guy with eyes whose colour i could never determine. He really doesnt know what to do with his life but his heart is in the right place. He is also really good at getting people to do stuff for him by all his cajoling and sweet talking ... u would know what i mean if u ever get to be at the recieving end of his persuations, its extremely difficult to say no to him, when he is trying to make u do something for him ... He has made me do so many of his record work that way ... but well he is really a sweet guy. He does really have good way of handling people and solving fights and its really easy to like him. I can infact write a lot about him but i am just telling some of the best things i felt abt each person ... so i guess this shud be it.

Another of my favourite song : ITS MY LIFE by BON JOVI

The soft version :
http://www.dizzler.com/music/Bon_Jovi

The rock version :
http://www.dizzler.com/index.search.dv8?q=its+my+life

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
Chorus

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
Chorus

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
Chorus

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

Chorus

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

Quest to find the real me ...

I am not sure when I would post this ... but I always felt better to reflect my thoughts here ... so I am writing down what came to my mind ...
I still don't know what I want to be in life ... nor how i want to be .... nor what kind of a person I truly am. Maybe that's y I often get swayed by the opinion of those around me and remain indecisive at least for a while before I decide something. And even those decisions need not be for the best. But from what I know of myself so far, I do know that I am true to the people around me. That doesn't mean that I tell every small detail of myself to everyone. I do keep things to myself which I feel someone need not know, for reasons of my own. But I do always try to tell people the truth. I also do trust people way too easily, at least while chatting and it was after doing some grave mistakes that I decided if I just wanted to talk and didn't mind letting someone I met on the run know things abt my life, why not just post it in public. Coz it really doesn't make a difference as I do not mind sharing the information. And this way is in a way a better way.
OK talking abt me one thing I really know after reading my own posts is that I am a very distracted person. My thoughts go so fast from one topic to another even as I just type in what runs through my mind. So I guess there needn't be a flow in what I write. But well this is not meant for the sensible audience or anything. Its just meant for anyone who cares to read. And besides might not appeal to anyone at all, or just to those who are as much weird or crazy as me.
Well there are many more things I am aware about myself but I guess I do not want to share me like an open book now. But I guess I am good at getting over depressions as quickly as I get into them. And for the most part I like to be optimistic about things. Apart from these general trivia before I forget my lessons I would like to make a few things I would like to follow in my own future :

1. I should try to be less affected by every remark or opinion people have of me or people tend to tell me.
2. Try to do things that I enjoy as much as possible.
3. Try to think things through before I speak them (tough one for me at least since I tend to speak first and think later).
4. Don't get disappointed ever ... try try try ... no matter what u will find what u want (the plus point being I dunno what I want, I know that can be confusing to u, but not to me - just means I find whatever I love at the moment, see if it makes me happy else I still have to find what I want ... has it ever occurred to you finding ur dream could be a quest in itself?).
5. Don't think anything that happens to u is bad, it all had a purpose, think on the positive note, u learned something out of it and u didn't die of it ... so u could still use the facts.

I guess that would be it for now on this note. I already drifted all over the topic and by now probably made it a typical post by me ... something that wont make sense to most people. Guess my work for this post is complete. :)

When I become most happy ....

I just sat thinking the times when i felt absolutely happy .... just blissfully happy ... and the one thing that has always succeeded in making me happy was a basketball game. Now I barely know the game and my shooting isnt anywhere close to average nor is my ball handling skills, and well frankly speaking I havent trained for the game, but just have played for fun. But thats what makes it so wonderful, just playing it for fun with friends, not necessarily following all the rules. I had started playing in my 9th and found it a game I really enjoyed. I used to play with guys till college end and well i got knocked down and bruised quite a bit and still have the scars to show, but while playing none of that ever mattered. The feeling of running up and down the court trying to find an opening to get the ball, pass it or shoot it, chase down opponents and just make it difficult for them to score, all that and all the fun and laughter... All games are fun for me ... kho-kho was my favourite in school when I was in Kottarakara, MGM school till 7th where they really concentrated on that game, but when i came to trivandrum that game was not played much and so started on basketball. Anyway i love anygame where there is the thrill of running, sprinting and thinking of some strategy, where u have a team and all play as one, and where there is comraderie and sportsmanship ... and where win or loose ... u still have lots of fun!!! And I miss the games and wish I would go places where be it basketball or something new I may get the chance to try out and learn to love, I do get a chance to be free to sprint and have fun!!!

My Favourite song : Greenday - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

http://www.dizzler.com/music/Green_Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing thats beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til' then I'll walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines
what'sFucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I'll walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til' then I'll walk alone