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Saturday, January 31, 2009

My Favourite song : Greenday - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

http://www.dizzler.com/music/Green_Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing thats beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til' then I'll walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines
what'sFucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I'll walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til' then I'll walk alone

Few lines that came to mind ...

Heart break
Forget all the faces
Forget all the faces in your past
Let them gather dust in ur mind
Let them gather the cobwebs
No longer they mean anything to u
They no longer matters to u
Let your life sail along its way
And the past matter no more
Learn to let go
Live on with ur life
And remember always that
One life is all you got ...
So watever has been
What ever will be
Its all part of a journey
That u get to be in.

Just a whisp of my thoughts when my mind was a storm ...

In ur life u get to learn a lot of things ... through experiences, and one thing i really learned - don't make close friends out of people u hardly know right away ... by that itself u could understand I already did it ... yeah well when u are feeling down and feel u want to talk to someone, and u don't find any of your close friends around, u can really end up doing a lot of stupid things. The most hopeless and totally worst thing I feel I did was just make new friends of all the people I found in my old school community and for the most part people I have never known. Guess i will from now on stick to meeting people first before making friends online. Coz this was really bad for me and am now left feeling down in the dumps. One after the other all ended in really making me feel from bad to more bad to worse .... quite progressively that I feel like staying completely off the net ... talk abt de-addiction, coz staying online was wat i was doing for all these months since passing out from college and not being called for work thanks to the economic crisis and my own lack of knowing what to do with myself, as i never had any back up plan other than waiting indefinitely for that call from the company.
Also having had other personal problems recently i just needed some company and so just went and made friends with people and trusted my instincts to trust them ... well i still believe none of them would belay my trust but i was wrong in assuming they would make me feel any better ... coz they really don't know me at all, and how could they having not known me for more than a few months, and hence they in the end started advising me to go get married as a suggestion of an alternative to being jobless. I just cant understand what it is with guys thinking marriage is all that is required to make a girl happy ... seriously they do not know me well enough. I don't even think marriage is necessary unless u find the right somebody, though unfortunately that's not how things work in my society here. I know sometime my parents will force me to get married to someone they think is ideal and since I don't want to disappoint them would agree to whatever. But at least until such a time comes and I at least prepare myself for the inevitable I do wish to be left alone with my dreams and wishes. Each person is different and has their own way of dealing with things. I may predominantly live in a fantasy world where I believe in a fairytale life. That I will find a dream job and a dream partner and everything. But I guess in a way Ayn Rand in her book "The fountainhead" had a point, people hate a person to be happy and would do everything to make them unhappy with their lot. I guess I should learn not to take my trust to such levels that what anyone says would make too much of an impact that they deserve me to react to everything they say. Its best i leave them alone with their advices and let not anything bother me.
I feel that this moment I wanted just to speak my mind, so i did here in this blog ... and this is just a bit of me ...