Sannya

Sanni
My roommate for the 4 yrs in college hostel.

She is a gal who was brought up in Delhi, hardly knew how to speak malayalam, and a really cool gal and the only one in jeans I met in college other than me when I was gonna join there, so I decided to be in the same room as her. Was a decision I never regretted. She is like a sister to me, have stayed over at my place most of the vacations, been in the basketball college team with me, played pranks in the hostel and generally been a cheerful person to have around. My mom is very fond of her and still says sometimes if Sanni was here to help her select a Saree to wear, etc etc ... he he ... I am not much good there, whatever she picks I say its nice. he he.
She was a sweet gal who was pretty much a character, pretty much individualistic, having a mind of her own and who never gave a damn about what others thought abt something as long as she believed its right. She was also a gal who could blend in to any new place, face life as it comes and make the most of wat she has got. She is fun to be around and loves to have fun in life. She is sensitive and values friendship. She is a really good prankster and so people tend to disbelieve her after being at the receiving end of her pranks a couple of times. She is also extremely beauty conscious and likes to keep up with the "trends" in fashion, and frequently advices me to do the same (pretty much useless to advice me I have to say). Life is pretty much exciting with her around and you can always expect her to do something outrageous or out of the ordinary. She loves to be independent. We always differ in opinion on mostly all topics we discuss and our views almost always contradict, and its kinda funny coz both of us have these long futile discussions trying to make each other agree to one's own point and in the end its always back to square one. But all that also was fun, and proves u don't have to agree on things to be good friends, I guess that's basically because both of us believed in "live and let live" ... ha ha. Anyway when all is said and done I miss this gal a lot and I believe that we will remain the same to each other, no matter when we will meet again.

Paro

Paru ... my parvathy
My dearest and most close friend in hostel, and in my college life.

This is one person I really like a lot, and who is closest to me in my entire college life, and I have to say one of the few people I keep in regular touch with. She has a lot of unique characteristics, she is stubborn, reserved, shy to speak to strangers and very sensitive. A very complicated mix. She is also the most understanding person I have met, who knows me more than almost any other person knows me. I can write a lot about her but she wouldnt appreciate me making her an open book to read ... so I guess I will have to limit my words here. But she is really a very observant person, and knows to judge peoples mood and act accordingly which I find great coz she has mainly kept me in check a lot of times when I didnt realise something was wrong and might end up unnecessarily disturbing people by talking this and that when they might want to be left alone(which she keeps saying most people can and that I am the one of the rare tubelights who end up taking too long to understand when things are not right with people). But u see, seeing thru people who are really low but acting normal was never my strong points, and I thank her for helping me out in that. She used to be very hot tempered, but I guess that reduced a lot after four years in the hostel. She is a nice human being who has her own eccentricities, and her own decisions and opinions on things. She is highly interested in politics and what is going on with the world. She would like it very much if she can live an independant life without having to engage in the institution of marriage. She is really a special person and I sure miss hostel mainly coz I miss her and that I cant talk with her as I used to be able to. She is and always will be my dearest friend.

Depressed days ...

Now a days most of the time i am hanging on to not thinking abt anything if i want to stay out of depression ... anyone saying anything can get me depressed, and i just cant control it once i start feeling sad, it just gets aggravated ... and then i have to shut the world from me till i get over it ... I choose not to think the reasons for getting depressed though there is more than one reason for it ... I do wish I could get engaged in something that would take up all of my time so that I dint get time to think ... but that is not to be with the financial crisis making my placement a question mark, the classes i joined to get completely engaged taking up only 2 days a week, and not starting till 16th ... i still have a lot of hours to while away, I sleep for as long as i can so that i only have to face that much less part of the day, then try spending time online with whom so ever i then feel like talking to ... I prefer to talk to few people and those that do not remind me of anything ... so for a time I took to speaking to strangers, whom I got to know through a third party mediation, etc etc ... But that isn't quite solving the problem ... I feel OK for a few days and then start going bak to my depressions ... sometimes i think its OK to be depressed, there is only so much of emotions one can have and after a while it will get dulled off ... but every time i cheer up and have a few normal days and forget everything, the next time its like all the previous depressions didnt happen and its starting anew with all its fury ... Maybe I should take a break ... go somewhere ... where I am completely by myself and can do something peaceful and relaxing, a new place with no memories attached ... I do really wish like taking a break and running for it sometimes, but since i cannot do any such thing I am left to continue with my happy - depressed cycle till I get otherwise engaged ... And hope that when i do get into something that would be enough to get me out of this free fall and reach some plain stable land ...

Karthik

Name : Karthik
Classmate in Mohandas college

He is not exactly a close friend of mine. But we are acquaintances and have mainly spend time discussing programs in college for the labs. But from what I have seen of him he is a simple and straight forward person, with an easy smile and is very pleasant to deal with. He is hard working and often quiet in class. There isnt much more I do know about him but just thought of writing about him as I felt he is a really good person worth having as a friend.

Nimmy

Name : Nimmy
Classmate and hostelmate in mohandas college

She used to be a very good friend of mine in first year then due to certain circumstances, we drifted apart as the time went on ... but in final year hostelers day we regained some of the contact though we didnt get back to being close. She is a nice gal, but is reserved and distant. She prefers to keep to herself and remain aloof. She has her own decisions good or bad. She is helpful and loves going out, and enjoying life. She can be unsure at times about what she wants to do. She doesnt reveal her feelings openly and tend to be neutral. She does have a hot temper, though she keeps it under control mostly, and gets angry very rarely. She likes to be left to make her own decisions and prefers people to give her space. She can be an honest and good friend if u r willing to see her as she is and accept her in her own terms. I like her a lot as a person, as she is truly good at heart and does not do anything with bad intention ... she is a good person ... and it would have been good if we never had to drift apart ... but life takes its own course I guess ...

Neethu

Name : Neethu S S
Classmate in mohandas college, hostelmate

She is always forthright and speaks out her mind. She is also a bit possessive of her friends. Those friends she really considers her own she would be extremely loyal, but expects the same from them. She can be very helpful to those who are her friends. She is open to talk to but has a sharp tongue and might not mince words in expressing her feelings. But then I prefer people who speaks their mind to ur face rather than smile to ur face and slander u behind ur back, so in that respect though we have had some slight differences of opinions and bad patches, all that aside I do like her. She also have no qualms about admitting when she has done something wrong, and that is a great thing. She likes to dance, and she also lends hands to help out in organising things and volunteering for helping out with recruitment drives etc. She also is a good sport in having fun and have pitched in enthusiastically with the college day dance, playing Damayanti in "maliniyude theerangal thazhukivarum ...." which was quite good. And during the final year exams and later on after college we have come to understand each other bettre, and are now good friends ... and though I couldnt attend her marriage on 1st February this year due to my cousin's marriage on the same day, she has all my good wishes for a happy and bright future ...

Vysakha

Name : Vysakha
Classmate in mohandas college, hostelmate

She is a really someone who is yet to grow up ... who is still pretty much a child at heart. Coz of that she can be easily made happy or offended. She always speaks her mind and can be a bit abrupt and tactless when she finds something to her distaste or something that she dislike. She is very expressive and forthright. She is friendly and a really simple gal without any viles. If you do understand her and deal with her honestly and openly, she will really take to u, and be a real good friend. She is actually pretty simple at heart and a nice person. She has her own principles and she sticks by it. I have been to her place too for a during the rehersals for final year college day dance, and had fun there, with her father, mother, sister and brother ... and I enjoyed my stay there. I do have a liking for her, but we have never been real close as we tended to have different groups we hung out with ... and guess this is it for now ...

Kripa

Name : Kripa
Classmate in mohandas college

She is a quiet girl, who has an easy smile always. She always has really colourful earrings, which is something i always remember. She is a really simple person. She is soft spoken and easy going. She is game in having fun when we hang out together, and she likes to go shopping. She used to bring really tasty food to class, and I have been to her place too, and have to say her mom's a real wonderful cook. And she has a younger brother who is quiet fun to have around. She keeps her councel, and though we have hung out together every now and then I really dont know her intimately, but she is quite a good friend and a nice person to hang out with. We have gone on tours and all and it was fun. And I will always remember my visit to her house and had stayed there for a day for project ... it was really nice staying there ... thats abt it for now ...

Remya

Name : Remya
Classmate in mohandas college, hostelmate

She is a huge fan of Vijay. I was taken aback by all the vijay posters in her room ... She is also a really good dancer and has a passion for dancing. She is a very active gal. She is a bit of a nut case as in she can be totally oblivious to her surroundings and go off all dancing and stuff if she is listening to music, be it in the audience during colg fests, or be it on the road lostening to an ipod!!! Her laugh is one thing that can be a little too much ... he he. But she is a fun gal to be with. She can think abt things in a mature way at times, though she acts completely 'live for the moment without a care' most of the time. She is of a jolly kind, who would like to enjoy every moment in life. There were lots of fun moments we have had, choreographing dances together for the final year college day, hostelers day dances, really rocking away dancing in tours in bus, during camp fires, on stage in the cruise in goa ... lots of moments we really really had enjoyed to the max ... Hope that even though our college life together is over, we would meet somewhere again where we could go dancing like before ...

Veena

Name : Veena
Classmate in mohandas college

She is someone who is quite wild and open, loves to have fun and enjoy life. She is very talkative and also speaks extremely fast that u might loose track of what she is talking at times. Because she is extremely outspoken and can be a bit tactless in her dealings, she can make negative impressions at times,coz she is hot tempered and can really go off when someone gives her the reason to be ticked off ... but its only that she is really a straightforward person who shows her feelings and does not smile on the outside and try to stab u from behind ... I really have a high opinion of this girl, who takes life as it comes and is strong enuf to face life and will do what she feels is right without thinking wat people wud think. She is a true friend and really does stick to her friends through thick and thin. She is a friend of mine, though not all that close ... we never really had hanged out together much, as we had our separate friends groups, but from wat time I have spend with her, she has made an impression in my mind.

Sreelekshmi

Name : Sreelekshmi
Classmate in mohandas college

She is Lecturer Sreelekshmi now, teaching btech students ... she was always good at teaching and seems like she has a passion for it. She is a nice gal with a strong determination. She knows to stick to her views. She has been a good friend of mine in college and in the all india tour when I was not well she had stayed back with me though she had also another reason ;), but nevertheless. She is more quieter in class and doesnt alambify as much as the rest of us, but doesnt mean its coz she is not capable of it ... she cares for her friends, used to talk like a child sometimes, and mock fight over small small things. She is quiet in a certain way, as in she doesnt actually alambify ... but she is also bold and strong in character. She has her own beliefs and she also stands up to people when its required. She is very caring and can be a bit emotional at times. 4 years can give u lots of experiances, and much too many memories, and these are that came to my mind now which I can reveal here ...

Vidya Jyothi

Name : Vidya Jyoti aka VJV
Classmate and hostelmate in mohandas college

She is the most helpful person i have ever seen in life. Always there for her friends when they need anything. She came to the hostel after first year. But it was in the third year onwards that I got to know her better. She is a real sweet person, who is frank and open. She likes to dance a lot and is pretty good ... I still remember our dance - dappankuthu, mambazhama mambazham ... she was really good in that ... We had lots of fun in the tours dancing on the bus, both college tours and our final year hostel tour. She really enjoys life to the maximum. She has complete trust in her friends and always speaks highly of them. She speaks real fast and sometimes is difficult to follow her if u are not used to people speaking fast. She also has a very good memory, in fact its really something, she sleeps a lot even during exam time, she reads and studies for really less time, but watever she reads once she can close the book and reproduce just like that ... man. The biotechnology friends of mine once had a heart attack when they were trying ever so hard to study some tough subject and was reading thru the preparation of some chemical compound, and they tried to close the book and recall. Vidya was sleeping in the bed or rather taking rest, and they made some mistake in what they said, and she got up and said that that was not wat u read before and then repeated the correct stuff ... they were like open mouthed ... he he ... so if she used that head of hers a bit more to study wat wud it have been like??? She became really close to most of us in the hostel though she was not there from the beginning ... thats abt it for now ...

Bidhu

Name: Bidhu
Classmate in mohandas college, hostelmate, roommate

She has been a common factor everywhere in my college life, we used to be in the same bench in the first year, in class, and also she was my roommate for the 4 yrs in hostel. Later on i moved to the back bench from the first bench and she prefered to stick to the first bench. She is always been a real good friend, a very outgoing girl, with a very endearing personality, who is very talkative and knows whats going on with everyones life. She is a gay and friendly person, with a lot of grace. A wonderful dancer who could pic up any form of dance quite easily, I used to have fun watching her practice dance in the room, and she taught me many dance steps too. We used to have fun dancing on all parties, tours etc ... and in hostel also. She has a way of relating people to movie stars which Sanni(also my roommate) and I found very amusing. We had a lot of great times together in the tours, joking around, playing pranks in the hostel, dancing, and used to talk a lot ...there is lots and lots more to say abt her ... but this is it for now.

Prasanth

Name : Prasanth
Classmate in mohandas college

This is one really interesting guy in college. He used to act all tough guy ... make a lot of trouble and get branded "trouble" in class by the teachers. But he has got a great brain, and he could have faired real well if he had put his mind to it. He has a way of keeping people away by being really rude, and he kinda has a problem with letting people too close to him. But he can be a really nice guy and he does care for his friends. He has a lot of potential to being something great in life if only he wud put his mind to it. And if u learn to see his sarcasm and rudeness as just his defensive front, and get past that barrier, u would make a real good friend. He is also very helpful to those who need him and inspite of all his hyper active nature is actually pretty much good at heart.

Subodh

Name : Subodh
Classmate in mohandas college

He is an avid sports person, a superb volleyball player. He is quite a guy, but lacks self confidence. He thinks too low of himself even though personally I think if he would get a little bit of self confidence, and stops thinking he isnt good enough, he would be a really cool and nice guy. He is quite matured and serious and can understand a situation and give really good advices, as long as he isnt in that situation. But for all that he isnt that good with his own probs, and well very few are when it comes to their own problems. He is a very understanding guy, though one has to be careful when he is ur friend, coz he is extremely sensitive and might get depressed if u fail to contact him or if u dont personally invite him when u are going out. He needs to be assured he is wanted for an event. He loves his friends and he has a good heart. And if he stops waiting for the formalities of getting formally invited for events and wud just go ahead in attending everything that his friends want him to be in, without thinking anything negative, then he would be a great success with his friends. A little more positive attitude and he would be more happy with himself ...

Arshad

Name : Arshad
Classmate in college

He used to call himself tintu mon. He was my lab partner along with Anoop. I always enjoyed my lab classes quite a lot with these guys around. They used to joke around a lot, and usually comment on the actions of the other students of the lab, and mainly was really funny listening to them. He was not much into talking to gals and always used to say gals have an additional blood cell in them called the cheat blood cell. But for all his "he man woman hater" club attitude, he was still very friendly in the lab. I would like to believe that he never hated me atleast ... anyway they both used to make fun saying i wasnt considered a gal ... :( . He used to love going out on trips and often went out on bikes with the guys. He has an integrity of character, strong beliefs, a good sense of humour and was often outspoken, when he does speak. He didnt speak much to girls, mainly kept the company of guys. He was also very much interested with viruses and hacking and all sort of stuff ... photoshop etc etc ... In most programming lab classes if anyone has done the code it wud immediately be in his folder as well ... he he, used to amuse me to no end and I always wondered how he got it that fast. Though he is more of an introvert, i believe he is a really good friend and really good to those whom he loves ... thats abt it.

Mallan

Name:Anoop
Classmate in mohandas college

We had been lab partners - he,Arshad and me, till my s6 labs ... so there was a lot of fun incidents we had shared ... labs were always fun with these guys around. He was a genius in the electronics lab coz he created a new design where all the resistors and capacitors and all where standing to attention on the bread board, and after that we never let him connect anything by himself ... but miraculously he passed that lab in the first attempt itself ... which was really a surprise. He is a quiet guy mostly and was shy in talking to girls when he first came to our class. But well our class gals are a different breed and he got a bit more active as the years passed. Well he actually is quite a smart guy and intelligent too but he kinda wasnt in the mood to use it in the labs back then. He had also gotten a few punches from me and he was responsible for giving me the nickname olive. He is actually a sweet guy, straight forward, honest and fun. He used to tell me I remind him of his younger sister who used to beat him up at home ... ;). He used to be more of a hang out with guys type. But well though he appears a bit cool and distant, once he decides to make u his friend he will be a really true and great friend. Thats it abt this guy for now ...

Manju

Name : Manju
Classmate in mohandas college

She is a real quiet and reserved girl in class, who can talk a lot and be a really good friend if u take the time to get to know her. She has great artistic talents and is quite a good painter and some of her pencil sketches are really good. She used to help me, and most of the hostelites wear saree ... she was our expert on saree dressing. She is the youngest in her family, the fifth kid ... but not at all spoilt by being the youngest in a big family. She has a strong mind and wont waver from her decisions once she makes them, and has strong feelings about everything. She is a bit sensitive and also very loving. She really cares for her friends ... she was a classmate and hostelmate to me and there are many memories of the times we spent together ... but with this i stop for now ...

Rakhi

Name : Rakhi
Classmate in college
Gang : Amal, Anand, Arun, Andru, Shinu, Shanku, Rakhi and me

The only other gal in the group ... she is a fun loving gal. Was really crazy abt going for tours same as me ... She is always having a ready smile and a voice of real high frequency. We had a blast dancing away to glory in all the tours. We also shared a bench from middle of my second year in college onwards ... and had lots of fun causing trouble in class. She loves to buy footwear, thats her main weakness. We have gone to movies, and she used to stay at hostel with me and all together the memories are many. We have gone for many movies and had enjoyed a lot of outings. She is a simple gal who is a real great friend to have. Easy to talk to, very good at giving company, open, a good companion to have with u when u want to go for adventure or just have a blast in life ... the kind of friend who wud be with u thru thick and thin ... Much more to write as we had a lot of times together, but will fill in later ...

Arun

Name: Arun
B'day : 17th October
Classmate in college
Gang : Anand, Amal, Arun, Shanker, Shinu, Andru, Rakhi and me

He is a really innocent guy whose still a child at heart. He is into pinching and hitting his friends so he is called pincher. He has strong feelings about his friends and wouldnt tolerate anyone hurting them. He loves to hang out with the guys, go on trips with them and have fun in general. A really simple and easy going guy. His loves to eat eggs and wud attack any tiffin box that has eggs in it. He loves sweets too ... and so does all the others so when a sweet box is opened its always a big fight to see who gets more ... There are lot more to say ... but i guess i have to stop now.

Andru

Name : Vishnu
Classmate in college
Gang in class : Anand, Amal, Mathayi, Andru, Arun, Shanker, Rakhi and me

Andru got his name coz he is from Andrukonam, and well he is a quite jolly character. Had some fun in tours and he used to be into style. When i think of him its all the style he tries out ... he is kinda obsessed abt his looks, and well he tries to keep his looks "cool" too ... he is fun when u are out on a trip! He and mathayi are always fighting over really silly topics quite often ... they are like kids at times, but well thats also fun coz they make up real fast too (well mostly mathayi goes soft and makes the first move, and someone shud ... :D). He is an open person, an extrovert and loves having fun. And in four years time there are lot of fun we have had together, as part of the group everyone pulling each others leg ... And if there was a competition for who cud be the champion leg puller, he wud go away with the cup!!! He was also a good sport and gave me some company during sports times. And he can be a good help to take shopping and thanks to Rakhi and Veena he wud be successful in taking his wife out shopping ... as in one tour he ended up with those two and any one who knows what gals are like when they are out shopping can imagine how much experiance he must have gained ;) having to handle not one but two gals on shopping spree ... they really drove him crazy by running off in opposite directions in Bangalore where he had to keep them from getting lost. But well he was quite cool in that he succeeded in bringing them back safe ... There were lot more wonderful moments and i might add them eventually, but guess this is it for now abt this one!

Vedan

Name: Anand
Classmate in college
Gang in class : Anand, Amal, Mathayi, Andru, Arun, Shanker, Rakhi and me

This is vedan ... and the first thing that always comes to mind is when he eats one porotta which dissappear in one mouth ... ha ha :) ... he is the giant guy in the gang with extremely loud voice. He was always very outgoing and friendly, can make friends easily and can talk abt anything and everything. He was always into organising events. He is a very good organiser of events and all of the college tours by our class was organised by him, quite well in fact. I have gone for all of them and have had so much fun. Anyway moving on, there is this song we always associate with him ... Chanju nikkana putha mavinte kombathe chillayil keriyathu, poornachandrane kaanan alla, poo parikkanalla ... this song will always remind me of him, he used to sing it on all the tours with ample reason for it. Guys used to call him the database, :D . He is quite good with handling people and can be very helpful to u. A nice guy, who has been a lot of fun to hang out with. There are lots of memories of all the fun, the college tours, our short fun trips to movies as a gang, the college day dance (He was dushyanthan in maliniyude theerangal - priceless!!!). And hope we will always keep in touch ...

Shanker

Name : Shanker
B'day : Feb 1
Classmate in Mohandas college
Gang in class : Anand, Amal, Mathayi, Andru, Arun, Shanker, Rakhi and me

Shanku is my neighbour and also a good friend ... He is a very quiet guy. He is one of the rare species whom I have never seen show much of an emotion at all ... he is very good at not showing wat goes through his mind outside and as a result its very difficult to gauge his moods. He is quite friendly though he is quiet. Though he is a friend of mine when we sit and talk in a group he mostly only nods his head to whatever is spoken or usually maximum gives single word comments ... and its just the way he is ... a reserved person. He looks skinny but is quite strong, and is said to have too much strength to handle by the guys when he goes outta line when they party. But well that apart he is quite cool to hang out with.

Mathayi

Name : Shinu
classmate in college
Gang : Amal, Anand, Andru, Mathayi, Arun, Shanku, Rakhi, me

He is a very down to earth person and another of my close friends ... he would do anything for friends and cares a lot about the people whom he loves. He is also a guy with his heart in the right place and who has to find what he wants to do in life other than his favourite past time of partying [;)]. He loves his tharavaadu a lot!!! He tries keeping many secrets and often ends up being caught out by friends and then is at the recieving end of a lot of making fun ... But if he gets his life straightened out he is really a totally cool guy who would be a good family man also. And i sure expect him to have a very happy and successful life up ahead.

Amal

Name: Amal also called Alpu
Classmate in college
Gang in class : Anand, Amal, Mathayi, Andru, Arun, Shanker, Rakhi and me

This is a very good friend of mine and classmate of mine in Mohandas college of Engineering. We had a lot of fun together and though he pulls my leg a lot and used to get beaten up by me a lot, and maybe becoz of it he has a special place in my heart. I guess he is like a brother to me, and a friend. He is a simple guy with eyes whose colour i could never determine. He really doesnt know what to do with his life but his heart is in the right place. He is also really good at getting people to do stuff for him by all his cajoling and sweet talking ... u would know what i mean if u ever get to be at the recieving end of his persuations, its extremely difficult to say no to him, when he is trying to make u do something for him ... He has made me do so many of his record work that way ... but well he is really a sweet guy. He does really have good way of handling people and solving fights and its really easy to like him. I can infact write a lot about him but i am just telling some of the best things i felt abt each person ... so i guess this shud be it.

Another of my favourite song : ITS MY LIFE by BON JOVI

The soft version :
http://www.dizzler.com/music/Bon_Jovi

The rock version :
http://www.dizzler.com/index.search.dv8?q=its+my+life

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
Chorus

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
Chorus

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
Chorus

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

Chorus

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

Quest to find the real me ...

I am not sure when I would post this ... but I always felt better to reflect my thoughts here ... so I am writing down what came to my mind ...
I still don't know what I want to be in life ... nor how i want to be .... nor what kind of a person I truly am. Maybe that's y I often get swayed by the opinion of those around me and remain indecisive at least for a while before I decide something. And even those decisions need not be for the best. But from what I know of myself so far, I do know that I am true to the people around me. That doesn't mean that I tell every small detail of myself to everyone. I do keep things to myself which I feel someone need not know, for reasons of my own. But I do always try to tell people the truth. I also do trust people way too easily, at least while chatting and it was after doing some grave mistakes that I decided if I just wanted to talk and didn't mind letting someone I met on the run know things abt my life, why not just post it in public. Coz it really doesn't make a difference as I do not mind sharing the information. And this way is in a way a better way.
OK talking abt me one thing I really know after reading my own posts is that I am a very distracted person. My thoughts go so fast from one topic to another even as I just type in what runs through my mind. So I guess there needn't be a flow in what I write. But well this is not meant for the sensible audience or anything. Its just meant for anyone who cares to read. And besides might not appeal to anyone at all, or just to those who are as much weird or crazy as me.
Well there are many more things I am aware about myself but I guess I do not want to share me like an open book now. But I guess I am good at getting over depressions as quickly as I get into them. And for the most part I like to be optimistic about things. Apart from these general trivia before I forget my lessons I would like to make a few things I would like to follow in my own future :

1. I should try to be less affected by every remark or opinion people have of me or people tend to tell me.
2. Try to do things that I enjoy as much as possible.
3. Try to think things through before I speak them (tough one for me at least since I tend to speak first and think later).
4. Don't get disappointed ever ... try try try ... no matter what u will find what u want (the plus point being I dunno what I want, I know that can be confusing to u, but not to me - just means I find whatever I love at the moment, see if it makes me happy else I still have to find what I want ... has it ever occurred to you finding ur dream could be a quest in itself?).
5. Don't think anything that happens to u is bad, it all had a purpose, think on the positive note, u learned something out of it and u didn't die of it ... so u could still use the facts.

I guess that would be it for now on this note. I already drifted all over the topic and by now probably made it a typical post by me ... something that wont make sense to most people. Guess my work for this post is complete. :)

When I become most happy ....

I just sat thinking the times when i felt absolutely happy .... just blissfully happy ... and the one thing that has always succeeded in making me happy was a basketball game. Now I barely know the game and my shooting isnt anywhere close to average nor is my ball handling skills, and well frankly speaking I havent trained for the game, but just have played for fun. But thats what makes it so wonderful, just playing it for fun with friends, not necessarily following all the rules. I had started playing in my 9th and found it a game I really enjoyed. I used to play with guys till college end and well i got knocked down and bruised quite a bit and still have the scars to show, but while playing none of that ever mattered. The feeling of running up and down the court trying to find an opening to get the ball, pass it or shoot it, chase down opponents and just make it difficult for them to score, all that and all the fun and laughter... All games are fun for me ... kho-kho was my favourite in school when I was in Kottarakara, MGM school till 7th where they really concentrated on that game, but when i came to trivandrum that game was not played much and so started on basketball. Anyway i love anygame where there is the thrill of running, sprinting and thinking of some strategy, where u have a team and all play as one, and where there is comraderie and sportsmanship ... and where win or loose ... u still have lots of fun!!! And I miss the games and wish I would go places where be it basketball or something new I may get the chance to try out and learn to love, I do get a chance to be free to sprint and have fun!!!