Tug of War between mind and heart

This is not the first time that I feel my heart wanting something and my mind not agreeing. Nor is it going to be the last time. My heart often wish that it could do what it wants, could save a lot of heart ache. But in the constant struggle between mind and heart it is often necessary for the heart to surrender so that it could save loosing the mind.

There is always certain things that the heart always wants, and this time its no different. It feels it is not meant to live alone, and it seeks for the company of another, it feels it has a lot to share and aches for one to be present. It does not understand reason and it keeps searching for one to fill the void it feels.

The mind cannot just let the heart follow its path however without, considering a million other factors, which are needed for this entity to survive in this world of today, and make something out of its life here. So often it has to decide to put on hold the hearts persistent plea, and channel resources to other things it considers need to be done.

There have been times, the heart took over the mind, cut off the mind from the entity and had its way. But that resulted in the consequences the mind had tried to prevent, which the mind had warned the heart before it was cut loose. Then again for the little joy the heart had, resulted in more ache later as eventually the mind came back, on the request of the heart to save this entity from loosing its path in life. These choices are often tough on the heart and it would end up mourning for long. That makes life unhappy for the entity. But thankfully this entity has an ever optimistic mind that communicates with the heart, consoles it and let it have hope.

Now again the mind rules, the heart (who now is of the state of once bitten twice shy) decides to let the mind make the decisions. But cant say there arent turbulent periods when the heart feels so depraved and begs the mind to let it have what it seeks, to follow the path it yearns. And hence again the struggle continues, and hope the heart has its due and gets what it so desires and then the mind and the heart can follow the same path as one and rule the entity( being me ) together.

:)