MYSTERY OF ATTRACTION

Its always a mystery, why we meet the people we meet in life. Why we feel different towards each person we meet.

Why certain people have more appeal/attraction to you than others. Why different people feel this attraction differently and upon different persons.

We never completely understand why we like certain people a lot in a very short interval. Why certain people could mean the world to you even before you realize they do.

Why many a times the world conspires in a such a way that you will be forced to abandon some of these people who means the world to you for some others who also mean the world to you.

Why is it that you always have to make extremely hard choices at times about which world you want to loose, which of those dear ones you would have to hurt - and either way feel helpless and hurt yourself.

Why do we always hurt ourselves and no matter what, not bear that we ended up hurting someone we never wanted to hurt, and whose hurt will hurt us too.

Why do we choose to hide to the world the pain we feel, so that others who are dear to us do not suffer along with us?

Why do we not have the strength to stop ourselves from loving those we know would lead us to this heart wrenching situation later on?

Why is it that when we know deep in our heart that we made a choice which was the best we could make given the situation, we still feel lost and broken?

Why do we end up losing the meaning of life in the end and decide that since our happiness longer matters, let us at least give those who love us the most and those we have chosen to keep happy, what happiness they desire, by letting them do what they please with our life?

I know not the answers to all these questions ... but though I do not know - I feel better every time I ask myself these questions and more ... And maybe someday I will answer them in someways ...

Anyway I have to conclude love is one of the most dangerous element we have in life, which one can never control, and which completely rules our happiness. And no matter what those whom you love will always hold the power to make or break you. And any one of them can break you, and once broken it will take many of them quite a lot to make you whole again. Time as always is a healer to any one when they breaks. But scars from love will always be there in the hearts that were broken. Though we may choose to see the scars the way we wish - as something that will always be a hassle and pain or something to prove we have survived great disasters, we are brave and we will brave more as needed ... I hope I would always be able to see the latter and never fear the pain and the hurt - because love is a risk we will have to take and surrender to, willingly or unwillingly ... so isn't it better to be willingly go forth and take it head on and play a part in choosing our destiny rather than destiny hunt you down and make you miserable because you choose not to accept it but you still have to ...

My musings go on and on ... and its in my nature that I shall always take risks no matter the scars ... so I will take my time, absorb the pain, get over it and move on towards happier moments ...